you know, it’s funny…

…how much fear of rejection and ridicule is involved in trying on a smaller size.  It feels remarkably like walking up to the cool kids’ table in the lunchroom.

…how stress can be cumulative, and not even particularly noticeable until later.  everyone talks about the snowflake that triggers the avalanche, but does the avalanche realize that it was that particular particle causing all the trouble before everything is sliding willy-nilly downhill?

…how the pop wisdom regarding stress characterizes it as negative — an overbearing boss, a tense social situation — but the psychologists have a point when they point out that it can arise from positive experiences too.  it’s funny to think that something you actually enjoyed could have just added another layer of powder to your teetering snowpack.  maybe it’s exacerbated by having the good and the bad causes all jumbled up together.

…how much serenity can shine in the face of pain and death.  my grandmother is not a sentimental person, and she’s not having italian matriarch-style deathbed scenes with anybody.  but she said to my mother that after she’s gone, mama should sit in the swing at her fuquay house, and they will have conversations there.

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4 Comments

  1. freundlyfolk said,

    July 24, 2008 at 2:03 pm

    *HUG*

    be brave ~ you’ve earned the smaller size.
    be strong ~ no amount of stress is bigger than your circle of friends.
    be smart ~ you know what’s good stress and what’s bad stress, and what works best for you in coping with both.

    and finally, be at peace.

  2. krishyana said,

    July 25, 2008 at 3:49 pm

    steph said it so well, i don’t think i can compete there ;). I think i need to find a few more ways to deal with my stress at work hehe. /sigh /hugs for you and your family

  3. perhapsody said,

    July 27, 2008 at 10:13 pm

    i love you guys. 🙂

  4. freundlyfolk said,

    July 28, 2008 at 10:05 am

    we love you too, honey
    😀


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